Thank you!

Heavenly Father, It is great to have you here, great to know that amidst all of my troubles and brokenness you have never turned your back on me. Thank you for helping me pick up all my broken pieces and for guiding me to put them back together. Thank you for the reminders. The reminders of lessons I've learned on this journey and at the same time opening my eyes to see something I hadn't seen before....

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So Close and Yet So Far

So Close and Yet So Far Disconnected. Detached. Unmotivated, under appreciated. Repeated. Over and over. Again. Meaningless... Loneliness... Hopeless... Helpless... Hurt. Up and Down, like a roller coaster. The light peaks through. And yet, it feels so dark. Hands reach out. Reject. And fear of rejection. Fear of losing. Fear of you. Fear of the world. Fear of everything. Losing everything....

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He listens, He acts and He replies...

If you've been following my blog you probably know of my recent struggles. I've been working in a city away from home, I've been struggling with work, with family, with depression and with my spiritual walk with God. There are many things in between, but again I'm trying to keep this short (like I always do, but somehow end up rambling on and on and on haha). To sum it all up, I haven't been able...

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Support System

I've been struggling with many things lately. It's been tough, but for the most part I'm making through it all. Some struggles are definitely harder, but thanks to some wonderfully supportive friends I haven't given up yet. I haven't even thought about giving up. I myself am a fighter, I don't give up easily and I guess that's why my challenges are harder than other individuals. I've struggled with...

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A million times...

I can't remember how many times I've cried myself to sleep... how many times I have no control over these tears and how many times I've cried until the skin on my cheeks and around my nose stung. Yeah, I'm having one of those right now as I'm writing. It's been over an hour and every thought that crosses my mind seems to trigger these crying spells. I had a bad day today. I was feeling down. I felt...

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Life is so fair!

I've recently mentioned that I'm suffering from depression in my recent posts. The hardest part about dealing with this 'problem' is actually being around my family. They haven't been very supportive and instead it makes me feel attacked and so alone. I don't want to sound weak and keep asking my friends for help, or to keep telling them each time I have a crying spell. I feel annoyed at myself already,...

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2:30 AM

Hey Grace, I know it's late and you're very tired right now, but you said you'd go after your goals. You've set them and said that you'd aim for them. I know that it's hard to do anything else after those long hours of restaurant work. That's the last thing on your mind right now. You just wanna get into bed and catch some rest, but if you don't start now you'll be further away from those goals....

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