Thursday, 10 December 2015

Thank you.

Heavenly Father,

Thank you for reaching out to me and for rescuing me. Today I am reminded of the very dark times I've been through in my life and how I got through each one of them with your help. My current situation seems to be getting better and you have given me hope. This storm has gone on for almost 2 years now; disappointment directly following hope... I've been running in circles from hope to disappointment back to hope and then disappointment. I understand that things do happen for a reason and I just have to trust that you'll bring me through it. And also that when I pray, you'll answer according to your will. If the answer is 'no', you'll have something better for me later. You know what's best and I will follow Lord. There seems to be an answer from you. The prayer I've been praying for the last year and a half finally seems to be getting a final answer next week, but as I've
faced so many false hopes in the last year I'm also afraid. I'm worried that this time will be like the last and that hope will quickly be followed by disappointment. Please help me take away my worries and trust that you will find me what's best and that you will provide the help that I've asked for. I know I can rely on you Father. Thank you for calming the storm; although it's not completely gone, it's been a lot more quiet recently. Thank you for this time to rest my mind and physical body and also for the time to catch my spiritual rest.

I praise you Father, this storm has gone on for so long now... But when I think of biblical figures like Moses and David who've waited many many more years than I have, I am thankful and reminded that this waiting time will only strengthen my faith and my relationship to you. I've always been a strong and reliable person to those around me, but I love the fact that I can be weak and rely on your strength. I am nothing without you Lord, I need you and pray that you'll continue to remind me of your presence in my life and the many things you've done for me. Thank you for guiding me the right way and especially when I get lost. Thank you father.

I pray in your Holy Name, Amen.